my foundation was rocked, my tried and true way to deal was to vanish
my departures were old, I stood in the room shaking in my boots
at that particular time love had challenged me to stay
at that particular moment I knew not run away again
that particular month I was ready to investigate with you
at that particular time
we thought a break would be good, for four months we sat and vacillated
we thought a small time apart would clear up the doubts that were abounding
at that particular time love encouraged me to wait
at that particular moment it helped me to be patient
that particular month we needed time to marinate in what "us" meant
I've always wanted for you what you've wanted for yourself and yet I wanted to save us high water or hell
and I kept on ignoring the ambivalence you felt
and in the meantime I lost myself
in the meantime I lost myself
I'm sorry I lost myself - I am
you knew you needed more time time spent alone with no distraction
you felt you needed to fly solo and high to define what you wanted
at that particular time love encouraged me to leave
at that particular moment I knew staying with you meant deserting me
that particular month was harder than you'd believe but I still left
at that particular time
Taj odredjeni trenutak
Moj temelj se zaljuljalo , moj isproban i prirodan nacin suocavanja je bio da nestanem
moji odlasci su bili stari, stajala sam u sobi , tresuci se u mojim cizmama
u tom odredjenom trenutku ljubav me je izazvala da ostanem
u tom odredjenom momentu znala sam da ponovo ne pobegnem
tog odredjenog meseca bila sam spremna da istrazujem sa tobom
u tom odredjenom trenutku
mislili smo da ce pauza biti dobra, cetiri meseca smo sedeli i premisljali se
mislili smo da ce kratko vreme koje smo bili razdvojeni obrisati sumnje koje su navirale
u tom odredjenom trenutku ljubav me je ohrabrila da cekam
u tom odredjenom trenutku pomogla mi je da budem strpljiva
u tom odredjenom mesecu trebalo nam je vremena da se stopimo u ono sto je predstavljalo "nas"
uvek sam zelela za tebe ono sto si sam sebi zeleo, pa ipak sam htela da nas spasim plime ili pakla
i nastavljala sam da ignorisem tvoja pomesna osecanja
i u medjuvremenu izgubila sam sebe
u medjuvremenu izgubila sam sebe
zao mi je ,izgubila sam sebe-zao mi je
znao si da ti je trebalo vise vremena samo za sebe , bez smetnji
osecao si da treba da letis sam i visoko da bi odredio sta hoces
u tom odredjenom trenutku ljubav me je ohrabrila da odem
u tom odredjenom trenutku znala sam da ostati sa tobom znacilo napustiti mene
taj odredjeni mesec je bio tezi nego sto mozes da zamislis, ali sam ipak otisla
u tom odredjenom trenutku
Nema komentara:
Objavi komentar